July (and August) in Charleston pretty much suck when you aren't carrying around 30 lbs of extra weight and your body isn't already a furnace. I'm starting to realize just how much more they will suck now that I am doing those things. I feel bad because Andrew constantly wants to go outside ("I go outside!") and lately the thought of sitting outside in the heat and humidity makes me want to cry. And actually I have cried a couple times.
So there are days that I am SO ready to be done. And then I think about the fact that we have done pretty much nothing to prepare. That's no exaggeration, either. I realize that we have pretty much all the gear and stuff that we need so it's not like we have to buy a bunch of stuff. Just because we have it doesn't mean that any of it is ready. I have yet to drag out all of the boxes of Andrew's old clothes to find all the newborn and 0-3 month stuff (I did a horrible job at packing away and labeling). The room that this kid will be sleeping in for the first few months is currently full of tools and crap with the bassinet pushed off to the side. We still haven't done anything about transitioning Andrew to his new room, mostly because the closet in there is full of crap that we will have to find places for and I haven't gotten the motivation to do it. Oh, and my grand plan of having Andrew out of diapers before 2.0 gets here? Yeah, not happening.
Andrew thinks I should just relax and enjoy the flowers with him.
Panic mode hasn't completely set in yet. It's more denial than anything. So even though physically I am getting to the point that I am ready to get this kid the heck out of me I guess he better stay put for a while. Here's hoping some major nesting kicks in sometime in the not too distant future so we can actually feel prepared.
And on to this week's check in:
How far along? 30w0d and the size of cucumber. That is so misleading because we have a huge array of sizes of cucumbers in our garden right now. He should be almost 16 inches and just under 3 lbs at this point. He can blink his eyes and there is a good chance than when he's sleeping he is dreaming.
Weight loss/gain: Forgot to weigh myself this morning, but on Wednesday I was at +28.5 lbs so I'll go with that.
Maternity clothes: Mostly maternity clothes. Workout clothes are regular, I've just gotten tanks in the tall size to accommodate the belly. Old Navy is having a sale tomorrow with dresses for $8 so I might go see if I can find some that will help me get through these last two months.
Symptoms: Still constipated (of course) and just uncomfortable in general when having to bend down to do stuff. Picking beans in the garden last night was not fun.
Sex (of baby): It's a BOY!!!
Name: I was shocked when J actually handed me a list that he came up with Saturday night. There were a couple definite no's (Hayden and Ross) but there were a few I didn't hate (Davis or Jacob). I need to come up with my list still - my current front runner is Elliott since Owen is off the table.
Sleep: Sleep is hit or miss. Andrew's molars aren't helping, though.
Best moment this week? It was kind of a dull week. Watching Andrew chase his daddy around the back yard last night while J was cutting grass was pretty amusing, though. That and seeing him so excited by the neighbors cat - it was adorable.
Movement: He's everywhere. I just wish he would remove whatever he has jammed up in my ribs.
Food cravings: Watermelon. I seriously ate half of one myself in two days.
Belly button in or out? Very far in - pretty sure it's staying that way for the duration.
What I miss? Not feeling so gross.
What I'm looking forward to? At some point making some actual progress on Andrew's new room. We're such slackers.
Milestones: 3/4 of the way done. Yikes!
What I'm nervous about: Not really nervous, but I am dreading the zombie state of the first 6 weeks or so. It was hard enough handling an infant like that - how am I supposed to handle a toddler when I can barely function?
And this week's pictures:
With a head on shot just for fun: