I'm not sure if that is why I've been such an emotional mess this morning or not. All I know is when I was talking to her this morning as she was packing up her stuff I kept tearing up. And once they left I was a bawling mess.
I think it's because I am now terrified about handling all of this on my own. I know I've done it before and we made it through this period with Andrew. I'm not sure why I'm so scared this time. Probably because I also have to handle Andrew - a two and a half year old ball of energy that demands attention almost constantly. It's not like I'm doing it alone or anything. J is a wonderful father and we are in this together. We just need to get ourselves into a routine and get settled.
I have two weeks left of maternity leave (yeah, that's it and it SUCKS), but I still have 10 weeks until I will be going back to the office. Hopefully that gives me plenty of time to get a morning routine down so that when I DO have to get both kids out the door it won't be such a mess.
But I don't want to think about that right now, because it stresses me out. Instead I just want to enjoy the time I have left when I can just sit and watch this precious baby and not have to worry about work:
I remember very clearly that first week Will went back to the office and the first few days were so draining. I was a mess, too Hugs, mama. You can do it!
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Aaaw im on the other end of it. My hubby is a fireman and had to leave on a fire assignment just couple weeks after I had Owen. No one came and helped or anything. I know you can do it because I have been! I get almost no help and it's rough but you go into mommy mode. One thing I did was hire a house keeper and I just try to keep my to do list short. Also play doh has been a saving grace for Eli. He plays with it forever! And maternity leave is never long enough!
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