Thursday, October 18, 2012

I'm Scared

In less than an hour I have an appointment at the doctor to get a suspicious mole removed from my back.

Up until two weeks ago I had never noticed it (it IS on my back after all).  When I had an itchy spot I looked in the mirror and was a little shocked to see this somewhat sizable and dark mole.  J was also surprised by it since he had never noticed it before.  The next day I called the dermatologist and made an appointment to get it checked out.

That appointment was two days ago. He looked at it, measured it, examined it under some special light, and made the decision that it is of concern enough that they want to make sure they get the whole thing out.

I won't lie - I'm scared.  Terrified that my irresponsibility with sunscreen is coming back to haunt me.  Terrified that the worst case scenario will come true and I will not be here to watch Andrew grow up.  That thought alone is driving me to tears.

It will be about a week before I get the pathology results.  It's going to be a long week.  If anyone out there has some positive vibes they can send my way I would be very appreciative.

Now it's time to get ready to go get some flesh removed.  Deep breaths...


  1. ((Hugs)) Sending lots of good vibes your way! I hope it is nothing!

  2. This happens to people a lot (the scary mole thing) it will be okay. Take a deep breath, it will all be okay. I have had some moles removed before and nothing came from them. It will be okay.

  3. Ah Kelly, I'm thinking about you today. You are being responsible now and getting this taken care of as soon as you can, and they are being prudent in removing it now. I can understand how scared you are now that you have Andrew. Deep breaths! Deep breaths! One step at a time.

  4. Praying for you! These things just happen, it's nothing you did or didn't do.

    I had a pre-cancerous mole removed from my left boob in the spring so I know how upsetting it is. Hugs to you! You'll be fine.

  5. Praying for you lady!!! And sending calming positive vibes your way!

  6. I bet you will be just fine :-) When I was pregnant, I had to have a mole removed that the doctor was concerned about, and she said that had I not been pregnant, they would have never discovered it! (however that works).... and since then, I had to have a cone biopsy on the good old cervix, but thankfully they got everything, though I have to have more frequent paps to make sure nothing comes back. Not the same, but I bet you'll be okay :)