I'm not sure if the little munchkin is going through a growth spurt and it's affecting his sleep, or if our luck is just running out. Saturday morning he had me up at 4:00, Sunday morning he had me up at 5:00 and this morning he had me up at 4:45.
No glorious nights with 11 straight hours of sleep for him. Not even close. The most sleep I got at night this weekend was about 5 1/2 hours. Normally the weekends refresh me a bit since I don't have to get up as early as I do on workdays. Now it's only Monday and I feel like a zombie. (I know I shouldn't complain since there are plenty of people who have a baby who doesn't sleep like Andrew normally does - I just got used to him sleeping and now that his habits are changing I'm having trouble adjusting back to functioning on less sleep).
And he won't nap for me. He naps wonderfully for them at daycare, but we can't get him to replicate that for us. I have a feeling the room isn't dark enough. I know "they" say you should get your baby used to sleeping in all conditions, but "they" aren't the ones that have to deal with a cranky mess of a baby when he won't sleep during the day.
We hung out on the couch watching my crappy football game since he was boycotting naps
Add in the fact that my right boob is beginning to be downright painful when he nurses and that my supply appears to be dropping and I fear we will have to start supplementing with formula and you have me, standing in the kitchen, bursting into tears this morning.
I feel like I am failing him.
I can't get him to nap, my boob is revolting against me, and my supply is crapping out. All in all it makes me feel like I'm letting my munchkin down and that makes me sad.
Thankfully he seems oblivious to my feelings of failure
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that he has a good day at daycare and he takes some naps so maybe he will be more rested this evening and have a good night's sleep. And maybe the mass amounts of Mother's Milk Tea and fenugreek will kick my supply back into high gear. I can only hope.
I love this little guy so much and I only want what is best for him...